Like, for instance, you shouldn't have a career in science?
You know how it is--you're trying to accomplish something, nothing is working, in fact, everything seems to be working against you, and it starts to feel like God or the Universe or whatever Powers That Be are doing this to subtly or not-so-subtly tell you, hey, it's not a good idea for you to do that. That's how I feel in lab lately. Nothing seems to work properly, and tomorrow I have to present at lab meeting and I get the not-so-gratifying distinction of standing up there and saying that I have accomplished absolutely nothing in the last several months since the last lab meeting.
*sigh*
Why am I doing this again?
I can't say for certain, but if I had to guess I'd say an insatiable curiosity, a love of knowledge, a desire to better yourself, and/or hopes of a career you love.
ReplyDeleteMaybe instead of "it's not a good idea for you to do that," God is saying "you need to step back and take a moment and breathe deep." Perhaps a break, a pause, an afternoon of laying in the grass and watching the clouds, will bring some peace and clarity.
Or, you know, maybe you're doomed. I never like to rule out that possibility. ;)
*hug* Hope you're feeling better soon.
Because you are sick and wrong. Says she who has spent the last several months reading letters full of gossip that have nothing to do with her disseration...
ReplyDeleteOf course, I am a slipless heathen. ;)
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate. I'm working on a Ph.D. in Materials Engineering, and there are days that I swear someone is trying to tell me something.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. May karma give you a good upswing in the next few days!