I think I could handle the million other things going on in my life right now that are scary, but there's something wrong with my cat. He's doing this odd behavioral thing where he kneads for several minutes at a time, alternately standing up and laying down and when he's laying down, he shakes his leg a bit. This goes on and on and on until he finally gets comfortable and lays there. But, if he gets up to lay down somewhere else, it starts all over again. This is completely abnormal behavior for him and he's becoming obsessive about it. I took him to the vet, and we thought he might have some kind of infection that was making him uncomfortable, so I started giving him antibiotics and now he's not eating. So the vet wants me to stop the antibiotics and see if he starts eating again.
You know, I stood by the bed while my grandfather died without falling apart, but whenever my cat gets sick, I start to go crazy. Really crazy. Anxious. I had to call my shrink. Who recommended tranquilizers. Yes, that's how bad it is. And I'm not at work. Why? I just can't make myself go. I know. I should go. Get my mind off the cat. But, I'm sleepy. So, I think I'll take a nap instead. Or maybe I should knit. That is usually soothing.